Expectedly, life is full of happiness, hard work, love and regrets and many more. Most people take their life for granted, not taking a tiniest bit of time to reflect on their various actions and then regretting their actions when it was already too late to change. I am also a person with regrets. Just almost a year ago, I came to realize that the greatest challenges we have in life are with ourselves. Whether we are too lazy, arrogant or many other negative traits. For me the challenges I have is how shy I am and how much I procrastinate. A year ago, I was preparing for my piano exam...
It was a typical day at school, going through the classes and absorbing information from the teachers like a yellow sponge. I looked at the ticking clock behind me, hoping that it would hit three o'clock, just so I can go home. After a while, the bell rang and we were finally free from the six hour prison. As I walked into my house after school, I sat down on my comfortable gray chair, stationed in front of the computer with a determination to ignore my homework and the piano, an item so big it was seemingly impossible to ignore. However, I continued my procrastination until dinner which was three hours later. After dinner, I finally took out my homework from school and decided to work on it shooing my mom away when she nagged me about practicing piano, with the excuse " I have homework". When I have completed all of my boring algebra and social studies homework I decided to finally practice my exam songs.
I sat down on the black glossy leather chair in front of the piano and started to play my songs that I did not put my feelings into even when I was supposed to. The only thought of practicing piano was not so that I would improve my playing skills and pass my piano exam but it was to satisfy my parents. Eventually, I grew tired of the black and white piano keys, that stared at me as if they were mocking my inability to play each song without mistakes, also of the music sheets that spoke of a foreign language that only musicians would know how to read. Unwilling to practice anymore, I went to sleep only to wake up to the same schedule the next morning, disliking the piano, and the days slowly passed by.
I wiped my cold sweaty hands on my jeans for what seemed like the millionth time in those five minutes, since I walked into the exam room. I adjusted the piano chair, moving it back and forth, unable to find a position that was comfortable for me, which made me even more nervous. I rubbed my hands together hoping to warm them up so that I can correctly place them on each individual key for the examiner to hear, earning myself a pass. However, as the exam went on. all i could hear were my own thoughts about "I won't pass!", getting more and more frustrated as I played each song especially worse than before; fingers slipping on the keys from the sweat. Soon it was all over and I started to count the days that the results would arrive at my house. My hands shook as I opened the mail, I let out a sigh of relief, I had just scraped by with a pass.
I was happy that I passed the exam, but there should have been no reason for me to be so scared in the first place if I had practiced in the first place. Therefore, the greatest challenge I face is with myself because I procrastinate a lot and I ignore my mom's advices, even if they might be ones I should listen to. Another challenge is that I am shy. During the piano exam, I had trouble answering questions the examiner asked me as a part of my ear test. Ever since I reflected on this experience I am aware of difficulties that I have and I can attempt to change my habits, by forcing myself to finish my homework and other important tasks before doing whatever I want on the computer. Also, trying to be more confident as a solution for being shy. I think that if we can always change ourselves if we put the effort into it.
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